So, today I took another trip down memory lane. It's good to revisit something that happened at most 3 years ago, because while I remember all the feelings I had, I don't have them anymore, and now I can laugh at all the stupid things I did. No, this isn't a bad thing I'm talking about, it's a good thing.
It's weird, I had my first boyfriend three years ago, and while we only went out for a month, we really liked each other, and now I don't even think of him in that way anymore. He's just a friend now. Well, I was surfing the net and stumbled upon his old blog, that he didn't know I knew about at the time, and reading it has only made me laugh. Directly after we broke up I looked at it, and it made me sad, but now all I can think about is how funny and naive we used to be, and how much we've changed. I can remember it all like it was yesterday...
And now I realize that I don't wanna get all caught up in the "love thing" anymore. (I really should be writing my novel right now... just 1900 words left!) I don't want to pretend I like a guy just to fill some void that isn't there, I have realized. I've decided to focus on what I love doing (writing!!) and being with people who matter to me, because I haven't gotten too much lately (I can after midnight though!) and I really should do that more, especially since I'm going to college next year and won't see any of my friends.
Okay, the part of my brain that is dedicated to Nano, also known medically, as the NaNoThalamus, is telling me to stop blogging, and START WRITING! even though I AM writing right now!
Ahh, I'll check in here later with the latest NaNo progress updates from yours truly!
(Note: the parentheses are there to describe my inner writer's thoughts, which interrupt my blog and my train of thought, because I only have 4 hours and 30 minutes left!!)
Wait! before I go, I made up a new word! It's called "congrastination," basically the opposite of procrastination. So right now, I am off to congrastinate, so when I'm done, you can congratulate!
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