Pulling my hair out...

Karina is going insane! Someone help... please.

It's gotta be the coffee.

So, today I took another trip down memory lane. It's good to revisit something that happened at most 3 years ago, because while I remember all the feelings I had, I don't have them anymore, and now I can laugh at all the stupid things I did. No, this isn't a bad thing I'm talking about, it's a good thing.

It's weird, I had my first boyfriend three years ago, and while we only went out for a month, we really liked each other, and now I don't even think of him in that way anymore. He's just a friend now. Well, I was surfing the net and stumbled upon his old blog, that he didn't know I knew about at the time, and reading it has only made me laugh. Directly after we broke up I looked at it, and it made me sad, but now all I can think about is how funny and naive we used to be, and how much we've changed. I can remember it all like it was yesterday...

And now I realize that I don't wanna get all caught up in the "love thing" anymore. (I really should be writing my novel right now... just 1900 words left!) I don't want to pretend I like a guy just to fill some void that isn't there, I have realized. I've decided to focus on what I love doing (writing!!) and being with people who matter to me, because I haven't gotten too much lately (I can after midnight though!) and I really should do that more, especially since I'm going to college next year and won't see any of my friends.

Okay, the part of my brain that is dedicated to Nano, also known medically, as the NaNoThalamus, is telling me to stop blogging, and START WRITING! even though I AM writing right now!

Ahh, I'll check in here later with the latest NaNo progress updates from yours truly!

(Note: the parentheses are there to describe my inner writer's thoughts, which interrupt my blog and my train of thought, because I only have 4 hours and 30 minutes left!!)

Wait! before I go, I made up a new word! It's called "congrastination," basically the opposite of procrastination. So right now, I am off to congrastinate, so when I'm done, you can congratulate!

8,047/50,000

Every time I pass 1,000 words, I get so excited! But I know that once I get to 10,000, it will probably only get exciting every 5,000 or 10,000 words, from my experience. I need some kind of reward system with this thing, maybe every 1,000 words I can eat a cake? Naw, I don't wanna get tooooo fat this month! Suggestions for rewards would be appreciated!

Anyway, my video that I made for the announments was supposed to be on today, but it wasn't! *gasp* I think they just didn't have enough time, or something. I saved it onto a really weird hard drive thing, so maybe they couldn't get it off in time, I don't know. I'll probably see it on Friday.

I went to the library today, and for some reason I didn't get all that much work done. I did some studying with Sara, and that was just about the most productive part of it. My laptop just is way too distracting, and the free internet at the library is just so tempting! What do I do? I go to check y mail, and I have so much stuff that redirects me to do other things, which makes me do other things too. It's like a chain reaction. maybe I just shouldn't check my mail at all when I'm at the library? I'll just turn off the Airport, even though it's so incredibly easy to turn on again...

and there are people I wanna chat with online! Those people keep distracting me too. I had some great momentum just now, until someone IMed me with a question, which led to a discussion. I think I'm just gonna have to rip out the antennas that receive the wifi. Poor Gideon, my distracting MacBook.

Speaking of the library, when I was in iTunes, it automatically picks up other people playlists, if they choose to share them. I don't know who it was, but someone had really cool music. I was gonna listen to some of his Jack Johnson songs, but then I was scared he would find out I was listening to them, and come after me. O.0

Now listening to: Blue Oyster Cult - Don't Fear the Reaper

Day 3: Aim Low, Hit High

Haven't done too much writing yet today, but I will! I only need 400 more for my daily goal, and then I'll be at 5,000. In the NaNo forums, I've gotten some help to figure out the background of my plot. I had some holes in that, but now I know pretty much what happens before the real story begins!

I'm reading the book Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer, and there's a puzzle in it that a need to solve!! On pages 269-271, the pages are filled with just numbers, but it's the character using the numbers to try and say a message. Since numbers 2-9 on a phone have 3-4 letters on each of the buttons, I decided to try and decipher all two and a half pages of the numbers! It's like an extremely and incredibly difficult Myst puzzle.

It's not easy. I've tried googling this little puzzle to see if I could find someone who had already solved it, but no luck. I found someone who had translated the first sentence of it, but that was it. So, I've decided to be the first person to solve it and post the answer! I'll probably post it here when/if I get it right. Any help would be appreciated!

Anyway, I found a site where you can make a cool action character, so I made my main character, Katherine. Her face looks so white because I couldn't figure out how to put color in it at the time, hehe. The Katherine in my novel is probably younger than this picture, but this was the smallest/youngest body type the site had.

I'm a walking ad-vert-is-ment, for everything I never meant.

Oh. My. God.

I just ate the most delicious caramel in the world!!

I swear, it was like an orgasm in my mouth.

Anyway, so my day was pretty good. I'm super psyched for NaNoWriMo... just 8 more days!! I haven't been doing too much planning on my novel, but I think that's okay. It's probably better to have a vague outline than a detailed plot summary, because it won't give you much room to add in weird new plot twists. I think one of the most fun parts of NaNoWriMo is coming up with plot summaries that don't make sense. For example: In my novel last year, I had these two men chasing my protagonist all over the world, but I had no idea why. So, in the end, I decided that it was because she had something very expensive, and the only exspensive thing I could come up with at the time was a diamond encrusted cell phone...

I really need to edit that part out and think of something new! That is, if i ever get around to editing it. It's no where near publisher worthy, especially since I expanded every single contraction in it to build up my word count. I'll get around to fixing that.

Speaking of procrastination, I found a cool quote today: "Procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday." -Don Marquis

Haha, so true.

I decided something today, I'm not going to keep trying to get better at things that are way too competitive, and I'm not really good at. I've tried out for a lot of theater productions at school, but I'm just not as good as some of the other people who always get in. I'm going to keep writing and doing artwork, because I keep neglecting top develop those skills, and I could probably be a lot better at them if I just tried more.

I love writing, I don't know why I didn't discover this sooner! It's weird how I don't talk much vocally, but on paper I can do all kinds of things with words.

I'm going to bed, before I come up with another clever way to get myself killed, or worse... expelled! But before I do, quizzes are fun. Here's a quiz I took:

You are a Serious Date

Your dating philosophy? "Dating is for finding a compatible partner" You're not so concerned with how you date... As much as where the relationship ends up. Guys to look for: Men who write a good bit about what they're looking for. Not only does it show that they are serious about dating as well - But that they've already put a good deal of thought in to it.

What Kind of Dating Diva Are You?

Now listening to: What a Good Boy - Barenaked Ladies